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yaşıyorum diye bir sor kendine!
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(evde> sokakta > mahallede> şehirde> ülkede> dünyada)
nasıl yaşıyorsun diye!
20:42 - 24/10/2005 - {3} -
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18:21 - 17/10/2005 - {1} -
* Düşünceler
Yeni bir sıcak gün bugün ve hep aynı yorgunluk; sıcağa olan tepkim. Beni bekleyen
insanlar dışarıda korkunç sıcakla beraberler. Eriyip gidiyorlar işte. Eriyip gidiyoruz…
Şöyle bir örnek veriyorum kendime: “Yaşamın camlaşmış düzeninde kum tanesi olmuşken
neye yarar camın saydam olması”. Bu aynı zamanda yeni bir başlangıç hayata olan bakışımda.
İnsanlar zaten hep bir yerlerinden hayata bakıp duruyorlar değil mi? Ben neresinden
baktığımı da ortaya koydum ki her bir kum tanesini sayabilecek bir yerdeyim. Ve lakin bense
dışardan hep saydam bir yapıdayım. İşin özü; saydam olmak çok zor. Zaten son zamanlarda
çok fazla duyduğum bir cümle var ki bu herkesin bildiği ve beni deli eden “hayatta kolay olan
ne var ki?” sorusu. Yetişkin olup da bu soruyu bir defa olsun kendine ve en az birine
sormayan yoktur muhtemelen. İnsanoğlu savunma mekanizmasını ne kadar da geliştirip,
acayip bir mekanizma oluveriyor. İnsanın herhangi bir şeye yetisi sınırlıdır ama kendini bu
yüzden yakınen bitkisel hayata sokan birçok insan tanıdım ve bu beni üzüyor. Bahsettiğim
olay soyutlama güdüsü yani insanın bir şekilde kendini yalnızlık içerisine sokma durumu.
Unutmamalı ki insanların arasında yaşamak da bir becerikliliktir ve bu daha zevklidir.
Yalnızlık hiçbir şeyi unutturmaz, aksine üstümüze gelir adice. Kısaca ve basitçe
anlatmak istediğim: dengeli yaşayın mutlu kalın. Her şey dengededir.
** Sorgular
- Hayatın boyunca mutluluğu nerde bulacağına karar verememiş olman seni mutsuz edebilir mi?
- Zor olan nedir; yapamadıkların mı, yapmak istediklerin mi?
- Kararları sen mi yoksa düzen mi veriyor?
- Her birey bir diğerini öldürecek kadar özgürlüğe muhtaç mıdır?
- Sen mi yoksa diğerleri mi?
- Can sıkıntın nelere kadir?
- İnandıkların mı korkun mu?
- Düşüncelerini ne yaparsın?
- Sen kimsin?
* Bir şekilde kafamızı meşgul eder.
** “Lütfen cevap verin!”
selchuq
18:09 - 17/10/2005 - {0} -
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